I never have nothing to say about this

I have this...we'll say friend for ease. He is the same age as me. Thinking of him lights a fire inside of me that could burn through my soul if I let it. Dramatic? maybe. This guy just doesn't get it. He drives me insane when I think of all the things he's done. He has little regard for anyone else and only considers his personal irrational emotions in situations. He shuts down and does not listen and try to understand where you are coming from in an argument and spills verbal attacks at you in an attempt to block the realization that he is less than perfect and probably at fault. He is unreasonable by any means of the word. Once it hits him that you are right and he has exhausted ever means to counter that, enter self pity. "Is this only my fault?" "Can you blame me for reacting this way?" These make sense for a few seconds until you realize that still, he is not confronting the problem at hand. I was on vacation once for a week. He sent me a text message stating that I was only his friend when it was convienent for me and that that was unfair. This was because I had not called him during my week long absense, and it was in the middle of it, not even a week had gone by. Being the girl that I am I attempted to call him many times to explain things and to make things right. He did not pick up at all. How do you call someone out like that, first of all when it isnt true and I was on vacation, and then not pick up the phone when they try to make it right? WTF. Thanks for ruining my vacation. This is one of many times. Our friendship is now over. I cannot bring myself to make things right with him because I know that simply he won't understand. He'll shut down and avoid the problems at hand. He won't listen and somehow, it will be my fault when he's the one that stopped calling me a few months ago. Of course I want to make things right with everyone. I especially want him to understand what happened. I'm sure he has some warped view that I stopped talking to him when I have the phone records to prove it. I just don't understand how a person ends up this way. His family seems stable for the most part and there are some things that could have changed his view on life, but to this extent? How does your head lead you to this place where you are not the one to blame ever? Its just this downward spiral of selfishness and irrationality. I just cannot believe that a person without larger mental disorders exists. I am for the large part unable to understand that what I feel and what I say about him are really ok thoughts to have. That I will encounter these people in my life. That its ok to move on without trying to fix something that will always be broken. I feel like a horrible person for it because I know that in his web of thoughts, he thinks I am to blame when every problem we've ever had was because of him. And really, I just want him to know how I feel, but I am completely unable to deal with the consequences of voicing my pain to him. Man, this sucks.